Where She Went

I was like… Je ne sais quoi.

It’s been three years since the devastating accident… three years since Mia walked out of Adam’s life forever.

Now living on opposite coasts, Mia is Juilliard’s rising star and Adam is LA tabloid fodder, thanks to his new rock star status and celebrity girlfriend. When Adam gets stuck in New York by himself, chance brings the couple together again, for one last night. As they explore the city that has become Mia’s home, Adam and Mia revisit the past and open their hearts to the future – and each other.

Told from Adam’s point of view in the spare, lyrical prose that defined If I Stay, Where She Went explores the devastation of grief, the promise of new hope, and the flame of rekindled romance.

Je ne sais quoi. That’s it. Enough said. 5 shooting star for me!! I love it!

There’s one thing I like to ask from the author, it’s the fictional album ‘Collateral Damage’. I want it to exist in music store like iTunes and etc.

Some of the lyrics from a song out of ‘Collateral Damage’album:

First you inspect me
Then you dissect me
Then you reject me
I wait for the day
That you’ll resurrect me

 "Animate” Collateral Damage, Track 1
Animate is one of the fictional song that I really like! And there’s another one! Here:

The clothes are packed off to Goodwill
I said my good-byes up on that hill
The house is empty, the furniture sold
Soon your smells will decay to mold
Don’t know why I bother calling, ain’t nobody answering
Don’t know why I bother singing, ain’t nobody listening
“Disconnect” Collateral Damage, Track 10

Of course, Animate‘s chorus:

Hate me. Devastate me.
Annihilate me.
Re-create me.
Re-create me.
Won’t you, won’t you won’t you re-create me.

Totally written by a “man” if you know what I mean if you had read the book. It’s my first time reading a book in guy’s perspective. I mean…not really first time but it’s my first time reading a book that tells us how guys literally are when they are in a complicated situation/relationships. Getting inside of Adam’s head, was actually funny and he’s hilarious! And..a guy like him is such a poker face. Well, it’s pretty true that guys like to hide their feelings. I observed guys and I always have to check on the poker face and ting! YES!

Adam is really… a cool guy. I see that he always seem to be himself, the real him whenever he’s around Mia. Oh I love them both. Very cute couple!

I so have nothing to say…this book is absolutely amazing! Read it!

I hear rumors… but I think it’s true, that there will be ‘If I Stay’ movie!!!! EEEEEEEEK!! *fingers crossed*

If I Stay

I finished reading the book – If I Stay in one day. Mia… she had made the right choice. Gayle Forman writes beautifully. She did an amazing job writing this book! I picked up the book simply because I may get something deep from it about love. Not that I’m trying to learn from a fiction, no. Sometimes fiction really gets me a lot to ponder on things I haven’t really thought of. I do this when I get a quiet time for myself.

I’m pretty weird sometimes…I say my thoughts aloud to myself – I forget there are people around me. 

In a single moment, everything changes. Seventeen-year-old Mia has no memory of the accident; she can only recall riding along the snow-wet Oregon road with her family. Then, in a blink, she finds herself watching as her own damaged body is taken from the wreck… A sophisticated, layered, and heartachingly beautiful story about the power of family and friends, the choices we all make—and the ultimate choice Mia commands.

Above is just a synopsis of the book only.
This is the plot of the book; posted on Gayle Forman’s website:

On a day that started like any other…

 Mia had everything: a loving family, a gorgeous, adoring boyfriend, and a bright future full of music and full of choices. Then, in an instant, almost all of that is taken from her. Caught between life and death, between a happy past and an unknowable future, Mia spends one critical day contemplating the one decision she has left—the most important decision she’ll ever make. 

Simultaneously tragic and hopeful, this is a romantic, riveting and ultimately uplifting story about memory, music, living, dying, loving.

http://www.gayleforman.com/books/if-i-stay/

I love Mia and Adam’s deep relationship. They sound so mature to me – serious in their relationship. Both had a beautiful smooth relationship but of course no couple out there are perfect. They have problems to face on their own and that’s what makes them a realistic couple. Truly, in a relationship there are challenges to face every road you turn. Going off college and for the future – lots of choices to choose at the same time a difficult situation to be in.

I’m not a fan of making choices, you know. Haha! I really don’t. It’s hard enough. I still make my parents choose a decision for me at this age but I know someday i should be independent to make the choices. Right choices. I have to learn starting… Now.

I really adore Mia’s little brother, Teddy, but you can’t turn back now to what had happened. In my opinion, she had made a choice that was right to continue living even if it hurts without them by your side. Mia has a second chance to reach her dreams and more. She has a future ahead of her with her grandparent’s support, care, love that all she need. I’ll still miss Teddy though.

Anyways, last night I was just curious about who will be my true love. Is he really out there waiting for me? Waiting for the right time like me? Patient like me too? I know it sounds crazy to think about this – at such a young teenage me hahah! I was on bed when I questioned myself all of this and since no one answered my questions I just assured myself, he is out there.

I almost forgot to tell about my passion for classical music. I used to listen often to classical music, ’til now. It’s still my favorite. I’ve come to love classical when I watched this anime called La Corda d’Oro. I’ve grown to love every piece played on every episode and the main character has inspired me so much. Then I found my heart that I wanted to play violin. It never happened though. We can’t afford to get me to a violinist to tutor me. I still want to learn how to play it now.

Mia plays classical. I’m on her side. I’m a dork like her lol.

P.S. Can’t Fight This Feeling Anymore is a song I can’t get out of my head while I was reading through the book. It’s the song that keeps repeating on my head when Adam cried beside Mia—all he wanted was for Mia to stay and hang in there with him. *SNIFFS*
Check out the these great sites:
Author Gayle Forman’s the official site: http://www.gayleforman.com/
The book’s website ~ http://ifistay.com/

Where She Went will be another emotional book. A sequel to this. What’s interesting is, the book will be on Adam’s points of view. I can’t think of anything better. Looking forward to reading it!

Quotes I like from this book: “Sometimes you make choices in life and sometimes choices make you.”

“I’m not choosing, but I’m running out of fight.”

“Love, it never dies. It never goes away, it never fades, so long as you hang on to it. Love can make you immortal”